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Growing
03:34
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You're growing up and you just can't wait
You're still young but you just can't wait
And when you're out on your own, and you've moved out your folks home
You can do anything that you want
And when you're out having fun, and you don't know anyone
You can be anybody that you want
You're growing up and you can't slow down
And you've had enough but you can't slow down
And when your first hair is gray, you don't believe when they say
You can move at any speed that you want
But if the years start to race, and you're stuck in the same place
You can be anywhere that you want
That you want
Just don't take too long
Before you're gone
You're getting old and you wanna go back
You do what you're told but you wanna go back
And when you're all out of fun, you think you've met everyone
You can move to anywhere that you want
If you're no good on your own, bring someone that you love home
Give them every single thing that they want
That they want
Just don't take too long
Before they're gone
You're out of time and you can't turn back
You're gonna die and you can't turn back
Before you're down in the ground, before you make your last sound
Did you say everything that you want
Before you see your last sun, be sure to tell everyone
They can change at any time that they want
That they want
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Sleight of Hand
03:11
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You spot your light on my eyes
I stop in my tracks and snap my brake line
You cast your rays of insight
I’m fascinated and intimidated at the same time
Not in a bad way it just feels like I’ve judged this poorly, and
I won’t live up to your hype
No I won’t
And I try too hard and I overthink
By the time my ego’s overgrown it shrinks
My confidence comes and goes
Your conversation is beyond my level of wit and it shows
I won’t give up yet but you bring me a new hill to climb, and
My sloppy pace is too slow
Oh, it’s too slow
Much too slow
And I think too hard and forget to speak
So I shrink and hide until someone rescues me
I played a tune that you knew
And you were amused and when I finished up I smiled at you, but then
You asked if I knew some sophisticated wishful requests, and
Reluctantly I had no clue
And I used up every sleight of hand
But my book of tricks by the looks of it was far too predictable and I understand
I’ll take this opportunity to learn from my insecurities
And next time dispose of this whole plan
Oh, this old plan
Let’s just hold hands
And I stare too hard and forget to blink
And I care too much does that make me weak
Do you try too hard do you overthink
Do you drain your options or overflow the sink
And I look too far it’s the death of me
Will you spot your light on my eyes and set me free
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Staring Contest
04:42
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Your stare is strong, I’m too weak to fight back
And you’re very hard to read but I like that
You’ve got your morals and a lucky man at home
But it seemed normal that tonight you’d be alone, and I caught a stare
Just one stare, and it broke my bones
And it broke my bones
You are mysterious and I’m trying
Not to be weird with this so I’m shying
Away and away but you’re just pulling me right through
And I can’t fight it no more so tell me what to do, cause I caught a stare
One strong stare, now I’m torn in two
And I’m torn in two
So just point your stare
Away from me
And your glowing hair
I don’t want to see
And your angel eyes
Are the devil’s glare
And my brain will fight
But my heart is bare
So please, spare your stare
You want a change and I can see that
But second place, now I can’t be that
A will and a way says I can put up my defense
But every stare just pulls it off and onto the bench, and I’m out of plays
So find a way
To just point that stare
Away from me
And your glowing hair
I don’t want to see
And your angel eyes
Are the devil’s glare
And my brain will fight
But my heart is bare
So please, spare your stare
Oh, your stare is strong and I’m too weak
It’s even stronger when we don’t speak
You’ve got your morals at least I think
But you won’t blink
You win, I’m caving in
Oh I’m caving in
Oh, point that stare
Point it right at me
And your glowing hair
Is all I see
And your angel eyes
And your devil glare
My brain can’t fight
So my heart is there
You should’ve spared your stare
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4. |
One Simple Act
03:26
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I hate being with all your friends
Eyeful of judgement never ends
I think I’d like some privacy
Without these burning eyes on me
Cause, you’ve kept your promises I’ve kept mine too
But any moment it could come unglued
Cause when we started we both promised it was only our world
But now the world is trying to barge in too
Is there nothing else we can do
Cause I’m through pretending this is untrue
Is there nowhere else we can go
Cause I know this door wont always stay closed
And, I hate pretending we’re just friends
Mouthful of lies please make this end
There’s only two ways this can go
Our separate ways or let this show
Cause you’ve got your options, mine are running thin
Just like the ice that we stepped on to begin
But if you wanted you could fix it with just one simple act
But you wont risk it ’til it weighs on your back
It feels like we’re under attack
Let’s step back and weigh the rumors with the facts
We can’t keep living in this trap
We know that, let’s break this lock and lift the hatch
Cause it’s starting to feel like this thin line just might snap
I hate pretending we’re just friends (I can’t be your friend)
Earful of secrets make it end
Yeah
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5. |
Hastings On Hudson
03:28
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Broken branches landed
On the side of the tracks where we wait
Hopeless chances stranded
In the tide and the wind from the freight
Our parting fate
One way, onward, not backwards
And for the first time we want the same thing
Though it may sting
Waiting at Hastings On Hudson
When the train leaves we’ll both start from scratch
Maybe we’ll daydream of something
Until your slate’s clean of woes from your past
And I’ll walk back
One way, onward, not backwards
And for the first time we want the same thing
We’ve spoken both of our minds
And the last stare might leave us both blind
And that’s fine
I’ll walk back
You’ll leave your old ways behind and I’ll hold you to that
One way, onward not backwards
And for the last time you’ll get what you want
Broken branches landed
On the side of the tracks where you left
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Your Old Shoes
03:38
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I heard the news or rather saw it myself
Right in the shoes you said you left on the shelf
I didn’t buy it
Though it was right there I still denied it
My worst nightmare, I guess the time was really-
-Right in the dive bar I saw you trying not to look
Like I was the eyesore standing in the fire barefoot
I didn’t buy it
Though you were right there next to him smiling
Stepping proudly in your old shoes, so I stepped out-
-Side for some air you bee-lined out in a rush
Pleaded I was a good guy, guess I wasn’t good enough
I should have known it
It was right there in that moment
I finally bought it
Oh, I finally bought it
Five months had passed, I missed a call in the van
I was driving and blasting songs from your favorite band
I checked it at the rest stop, saw your name and hit send
But I never got an answer, never heard from you again
Why did you try it
Did a change of heart make you excited
Then a change of mind just left you silent
Did you take that missed call as a sign, and
Well I guess that’s fine, I guess the time was never
Right
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Ne-Ah
04:28
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Ne-Ah doesn’t come back here often
She’s already forgiven for that
We all wanted a comeback year, we lost it when Ne-Ah left and no one could
Teach us not to give up and stay on track
Ne-Ah wasn’t disappointed in us
She just couldn’t miss a chance to leave
See the disappearing hope and it’s easy to leave your friends behind, but
Neither one of us saw it up her sleeve
Can you blame her, no no, she had to escape
But she was our savior, now no one is wearing the cape
There is nothing wrong with a new beginning
Fair is fair when your home makes you cringe
Her parents spelled her stupid name with an N.E. hyphen A.H. and she’s been
Barely hanging on ever since
Should we have chased her, oh no, after all she’s the brave one
Does the page turn, who knows, when we’re stuck on the same one
She saved her hard earned pennies for something better
A stranger in search of whoever she could endear
She changed her legal name to Mia, spelled it right this time, and she’s been
M.I.A. since then while we’re all stuck here
Mia looked through several states and chose one
Fell in love with the devil and all his ways
And she was full of potential too, it’s a shame we never looked for her, cause
She’s the one who needed to be saved
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8. |
How Uneventful
04:05
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It’s always easier to under-react
And all your secrets hidden under the latch
Always keep saying you’re done with the past
Robbed of sleep from trying to cover your tracks
I remember the day that we met
And how you trembled the pace of your breath
How it said that you were scared to death
How your stare was harboring your regrets
Unprepared to follow all of the steps
You needed change and you were trying your best
You needed patience and a day to rest
A different pace, a different place to nest
A listening face to get it off of your chest
And from the get-go I should’ve said yes
And helped you let go of all of your stress
I only said no to not be a pest
Oh, how forgetful to not see the test
How uneventful to never obsess
Oh, oh
How uneventful
You should have told me you needed me there
That you were lonely and needed repair
You shouldn’t hold me for trying to be fair
But would the old me have given a care
I didn’t notice the sleeve that you wear
And how your open heart was easy to tear
I wasn’t bold enough or even aware
I was too cold to feel the heat in the air
If I could go back, I’d be there I swear
Oh, oh
I’d be there I swear, oh, oh
I’d be there I swear, I swear, oh, oh
Always easier to under-react
And all your secrets hidden under the latch
Always keep saying you’re done with the past
Robbed of sleep from trying to cover your tracks
Falling deeper in your troubling path
Oh, oh
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9. |
Everything In My Power
04:29
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What do you say when you feel alone
It’s hard to explain when you’ve always said that you’d rather be on your own
I heard a rumor, you can free your mind to health
But what is the way to find yourself
If part of you hides in someone else
And how do you talk when you’re choking up
How do you walk when it’s obvious that your path is broken up
Try and forge a new one, it’s easier said than done
When all you know is all you’ve been
Show me the ropes to start again
Oh
Oh
I never wanted to trouble you
I liked you too much to tell you I wasn’t in love with you
I hope you’re okay with this and I didn’t lead you on
But rather I tried to find a song
Within our time but I was wrong
I’m just a little bit mad at myself
Taking too long to figure it out, although every little bit helps
I’ll try everything in my power to not let it happen again
And try to be fond of all I’ve been but be a little bit stronger in the end
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I’m not really that mad at myself
I tried everything in my power to free my mind to health
It’s okay if you’re not okay because every little bit helps
Don’t gotta rely on someone else
And only time will really tell
And all of the vibes that you once felt
Are still in your mind, they might have just been misdealt
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10. |
The River by Your Dorm
04:48
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You waited ’til your friends went to bed
You called up my phone, “are you up”, you said
It was four in the morning but I pretended
That I was wide awake
I said “I’m wide awake”
I walked through the aqueduct in the dark
All I saw was the ivy around the bark
You waited up on the hill and you looked for the stars
But the clouds wouldn’t fly away
You said “let’s leave here right away”
We went down to the river by your dorm
Everything was still foggy from the storm
And there was a breeze but the tide was calm
Not a current for miles away
No waves for miles away
And it was so quiet that all you could hear
Was our whispering voices and sips of beer
And the rustling leaves from the distant deer
Trying to find their way
Through the woods inside the haze
You should “if you should go, I would understand”
I said “it’s five in the morning, I have no plans”
I gave you my sweatshirt and held your hand
As we watched the tide escape
A slowly drifting tide escape
When you woke at sunrise the clouds had left
You fell asleep in my sweatshirt on my chest
You said I probably should take it and get some rest
I said “you can keep it I’ve plenty left”
And I wanted to stay there and waste away
But you had to move out and go home that day
There was so much more that I wanted to say
But instead I walked you back
To your room and I watched you pack
Years later I went back to that spot
But the entrance was gated off and blocked
It said “residents only” with a passcode lock
And so I tried and tried
Every number, I tried and I tried
I gave up and went back to that hill
It was covered in new dorms that they built
Everything I remembered all was changed
But the memories burned into my brain
So I drove and I drove, and I drove away
Over the bridge where they told me the tolls were raised
They changed the name cause the old one was blown away
So this is goodbye, Dobbs Ferry
I’ll see you in my memories
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Charles Loren Jersey City, New Jersey
Charles Loren is a singer-songwriter from New Jersey. His songs are piano-driven, accompanying himself on all instruments for a full-band rock sound on recordings, with talented friends in the live line-up. He is also the live-band keyboardist in Brewster, front-manned by his older brother Mark. ... more
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